Archive | January 2012

Happy Birthday Mami!!

My Mama’s birthday is tomorrow… These are a few pictures of her.
HAPPY BIRTHDAY MAMI!! Te Amo!

This was when I was a newborn. That's My Mami :)

This was taken over the summer... I am on the top, Mi mami in the middle and my little sister on the bottom.

Redondo Beach California 2011

One thing I love about mi Mami, is that she always knows how to get me to come out of my little shell and have fun . :)

4th of July 2010

This picture is really important to me... We were in California and I wanted to take this snapshot of her in her element. :)

Deep down... I believe that she will always have that youthful spirit in her. And when I grow up, I want to be at least half of what she is.

Rantings Of A Homeschooled High School Girl.

I absolutely hate it when public school kids think that I don’t socialize.

Socialize : to make socialespecially : to fit or train for a social environment.

Social: : of or relating to human society, the interaction of the individual and the group, or the welfare of human beings as members of society.

I don’t like the word “social”. Do I hang out with other kids my age? Yes. I do, and I actually hang out with kids younger than me. A lot of teenagers don’t like hanging out with kids younger than them because it is just not “cool.” But I love little kids. They are imaginative and creative. I love them, and most of them love me.

So yes, I hang out with a lot of kids my age. If you see me at home a lot of the time it is because most kids don’t accept ME. So I rather stay home and read a book then deal with the DRAMA of not getting accepted.

Friday night I went to a gathering of a bunch of homeschooled kids. To be honest, I thought that I was going to be the odd one in the group. I only knew one person there and he is my best friend. I was nervous and didn’t feel like meeting new people. But when I was introduced to all those kids who were just like me, I felt that I fit in somewhere. We were all outcasts, and for the first time I felt good about being an outcast.

Now for a video to my favorite TV show when I was five.

Veggietales : The Water Buffalo Song

You gotta love Larry :)

Favorite Song#1- Arms

Arms (song)

Image via Wikipedia

So after three months of posting songs, it is here. My favorite song of all time.

Arms by Christina Perri is my favorite song. I can’t explain why this song is of importance to me. Maybe because every word in this song, every line describes my life.

I have trust issues. Especially with boys, and this song is about learning to trust and just give it a shot.

Arms Lyrics:

I never thought that you would be the one to hold my heart

But you came around and you knocked me off the ground from the start

You put your arms around me
And I believe that it’s easier for you to let me go
You put your arms around me and I’m home


How many times will you let me change my mind and turn around
I can’t decide if I’ll let you save my life or if I’ll drown

I hope that you see right through my walls
I hope that you catch me, ’cause I’m already falling
I’ll never let a love get so close
You put your arms around me and I’m home

The world is coming down on me and I can’t find a reason to be loved
I never wanna leave you but I can’t make you bleed if I’m alone

You put your arms around me
And I believe that it’s easier for you to let me go

I hope that you see right through my walls
I hope that you catch me, ’cause I’m already falling
I’ll never let a love get so close
You put your arms around me and I’m home

I tried my best to never let you in to see the truth
And I’ve never opened up
I’ve never truly loved ‘Till you put your arms around me
And I believe that it’s easier for you to let me go

I hope that you see right through my walls
I hope that you catch me, ’cause I’m already falling
I’ll never let a love get so close
You put your arms around me and I’m home

I drew this back in the summer.... COPYRIGHT 2011

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Favorite Song#2- How To Save A Life

The first time I heard this song was on Youtube, and it made me cry. I never downloaded it onto my MP3 player. A few years later, after hearing it sometimes on the radio, I heard it on Scrubs. A really good TV show about a bunch of doctors with hearts of gold. It is one of my favorite TV shows. I hope you enjoy this episode of Scrubs, and please watch the music video.

How To Save a Life – The Fray

LYRICS:

Step one you say we need to talk
He walks you say sit down it’s just a talk
He smiles politely back at you
You stare politely right on through
Some sort of window to your right
As he goes left and you stay right
Between the lines of fear and blame
And you begin to wonder why you came
Where did I go wrong, I lost a friend
Somewhere along in the bitterness
And I would have stayed up with you all night
Had I known how to save a lifeLet him know that you know best
Cause after all you do know best
Try to slip past his defense
Without granting innocence
Lay down a list of what is wrong
The things you’ve told him all along
And pray to God, he hears you
And pray to God, he hears you
Where did I go wrong, I lost a friend
Somewhere along in the bitterness
And I would have stayed up with you all night
Had I known how to save a lifeAs he begins to raise his voice
You lower yours and grant him one last choice
Drive until you lose the road
Or break with the ones you’ve followed
He will do one of two things
He will admit to everything
Or he’ll say he’s just not the same
And you begin to wonder why you came
Where did I go wrong, I lost a friend
Somewhere along in the bitterness
And I would have stayed up with you all night
Had I known how to save a lifeWhere did I go wrong, I lost a friend
Somewhere along in the bitterness
And I would have stayed up with you all night
Had I known how to save a life
How to save a lifeHow to save a lifeWhere did I go wrong, I lost a friend
Somewhere along in the bitterness
And I would have stayed up with you all night
Had I known how to save a life

Where did I go wrong, I lost a friend
Somewhere along in the bitterness
And I would have stayed up with you all night
Had I known how to save a life
How to save a life

How to save a life

Part One Of Episode “My Lunch.”

Part Two of Episode “My Lunch.”

Part Three of Episode “My Lunch.”

Why I Don’t Celebrate Halloween.

Is it for a religious reason?

I don’t  like using the word “religious” I prefer saying that it goes against my beliefs. My beliefs are that I believe that God is the Creator of Earth and that Jesus was his Son and when his Son left, He left his Spirit to guide us.

So you are Christian?

Once again I hate labels. I am NOT a Christian. I am a Daughter of The Most High God and a citizen of His Kingdom.

Why don’t you believe in Halloween? All you do is dress up for candy. What harm is there in that?

To begin with, watch the documentary. Secondly, my parents brought me up in the right way. We never went Trick-Or-Treating. I would rather have a costume birthday party and have fun that way then go out on Halloween. I don’t believe in Halloween because I believe that it is the worship of the Devil. A warning, please learn the history of a holiday before celebrating it.

Where can we watch this documentary?

You can find it at www.documentary-log.com they have many documentaries you can watch online for free. You can find a lot of information about many subjects. I will post the video on here though, so you understand my reason for not celebrating Halloween. 

PART ONE

PART TWO

PART THREE

PART FOUR

PART FIVE

The Hills Of Cypress

The Hills OF Cypress

by Esther Star

There once was a battle,

On the green hills of Cypress,

It started on the eve of spring,

it was the final battle,

the final war cry,

the end of all eternity.

The Dragon spewed fire,

setting trees aglow in flame,

witches cackling as they oversee the battle.

Good versus Evil,

gargoyles would attack,

their faces set in a permenant glare.

The Army was losing,

try they did.

They ended up losing more than their souls

until the Hero came.

On that eve of spring,

The hero could smell the war,

from miles and miles away.

He grabbed his sword,

the measly old thing,

this Hero was thought of as nothing.

He was mocked and scorned at,

though no one knew his name,

they judged him before they knew him.

Then on this one fateful day,

he knew it was time.

He rode on his steed,

in the clear blue skies.

They flew over the battle once and twice,

He saw the flames, the trouble the horror.

He rode his steed right into a cave.

He bowed on one knee,

and sent in a good word.

In his heart he knew he was ready,

Off he went, into the battle,

the battle of Good versus Evil.

A mighty dragon spotted him,

and laughed at his tall thin frame,

“This fellow won’t last!” He laughed,

“It’s time to play a game.”

The Dragon flew towards him,

and landed two feet from him,

and roared a tremendous roar.

Our hero thought nothing of it,

and was in fact amused by it.

He gave a hearty ol’ laugh,

this angered the dragon even more.

“Young boy, I am Arville.” He roared.

“The most feared dragon of all,

If you think you’re all that,

then try to slay me you little bat!

Try and fail like all the others.”

Our young Hero laughed,

and threw his old sword in the air,

and in a flash,

the sword never came back.

And would you look at that!

The Dragon was looking for the sword,

wondering what kind of magic the boy used.

Looking for the sword,

that hideous sword,

Where did the boy put it?

And our Hero bowed, 

and with one hand on his knee,

he jumped into the air,

and magically caught it

and in mid air threw it,

right in the poor dragon’s heart.

And Arville tumbled down,

he lost his invisible crown,

and fell into an everlasting nothingness.

Our dear Hero saved us all,

from the wrath of Arville,

and to this day,

we hear not of our Hero,

No one has seen him since.

And our dear Hero,

saved us all,

on that eve.

That eve of spring.

COPYRIGHT 2012 Esther Star.

Rantings of A Homeschooled High School Girl.

Rant #1 : All Homeschoolers do is sit at home watch TV and do homework in their pajamas:

First off, this is not a complaint. I am not a complainer. My parents taught me to appreciate everything I have and I do. We traveled in an RV for sometimes 10 hours straight when I was younger. We did stop at rest areas for the occasional bathroom break. We didn’t whine. So this isn’t a complaint.

I have been homeschooled for my entire life. Never stepped foot in a public school except for a high school play. Do I resent being homeschooled? NO.

Nevada has the highest rate of high school drop outs, and most of my friends I talk to do not know who the 16th president of the United States was.

So when people ask me if I do school in my PJ’s I want to hit them squarely in the face. They don’t even say it nicely, they say it in a spiteful way. The only time I do homework in my PJ’s is when I am sick and not feeling well and I don’t get out of bed. Besides, if you ask me, we have more homework than public school kids. While high schoolers have 5 to 6 subjects of homework; I have ten, and next year I will get two more added to that. Am I unlucky? NO. I am actually proud of myself. I can handle all that homework and still have a social life. That will be my next rant.

Here are a few random pictures that made me laugh and smile. :)

STAY POSITIVE READERS!

I LOVE this.

Favorite Song #3- Use Somebody

Men aren’t perfect.  I am one of those girls who go around searching for the perfect guy. The one who will open doors for us,  remember our birthday, and  buy us flowers every time they see us. But guys are forgetful, just like girls. When a guy breaks a girl’s heart, she tends to slowly hate him; because he was the one who broke her heart. Sometimes girls get tangled. We make up fantasies in our head and when something doesn’t happen, then we get our hearts broken because we set ourselves up for it. So I can see someone who has a good heart, and I wish I had someone like that. But because I never spoke up,   they fly away like butterflies on a spring day…

Use Somebody- Kings of Leon

LYRICS:

I’ve been roaming around, I was looking down at all I see
Painted faces fill the places I can’t reach
You know that I could use somebody
You know that I could use somebody


Someone like you and all you know and how you speak
Countless lovers under cover of the street
You know that I could use somebody
You know that I could use somebody
Someone like you

Off in the night while you live it up I’m off to sleep
Waging wars to shake the poet and the beat
I hope it’s gonna make you notice
I hope it’s gonna make you notice

Someone like me, someone like me
Someone like me, somebody

I’m ready now, I’m ready now
I’m ready now, I’m ready now
I’m ready now, I’m ready now
I’m ready now

Someone like you, somebody
Someone like you, somebody
Someone like you, somebody

I’ve been roaming around, I was looking down at all I see

Favorite Song #4- Happiness

I have learned a few lessons for the past few weeks. I realized and I’m still realizing that happiness will come my way. Whether it does in 20 years, 5 years, or in 6 months. Happiness will find me, and until it does I need to be content where I am. Am I sad? Yes. Do I want to be somewhere else doing other things? Yes. But I need to be content right HERE. In my home. Happiness will find me in the right time. In the right place.

Happiness- The Fray

Lyrics:

Happiness is just outside my window
I thought it crashed blowing 80-miles an hour
happiness a little more like knocking
On your door, you just let it in.

Happiness feels a lot like sorrow
Let it be, you can’t make it come or go
But you are gone- not for good but for now
Gone for now feels a lot like gone for good


Happiness is a firecracker sitting on my headboard
Happiness was never mine to hold
Careful child, light the fuse and get away
‘Cause happiness throws a shower of sparks

Happiness damn near destroys you
Breaks your faith to pieces on the floor
So you tell yourself, that’s enough for now
Happiness has a violent roar


Happiness is like the old man told me
Look for it, but you’ll never find it all
Let it go, live your life and leave it
Then one day, wake up and she’ll be home
Home, home, home

Why I Am Who I Am.

This video describes ME. I hate religion. Religion kicked me out of church. Religion put a bunch of unnecessary scars in me. Religion made me feel unwanted. Religion put me in a noose. Religion made me fear God in the wrong way.

JESUS never kicked me out. JESUS took away all my scars and gave me his love. JESUS made me feel wanted again. JESUS took the noose off, and JESUS took away all my fear and hatred.  Instead He gave me forgiveness and peace.

JESUS > RELIGION: