July 8, 2013

Virgin: Give a description of the person you want to lose (or have lost) your virginity to

He was night at its darkest hour. His hair long and black like midnight,
his heart locked away, and never showing his face to the day
His eyes a bistre brown, and his smile rare although he doesn’t wear a frown..
His embrace is warming and mind always learning
He is a genius within a genius.
and it wouldn’t be fair,
If I started to compare
all the things that made him perfect.
All I can say is that I long for his kiss
and his face is something that I miss
weekly, daily, hourly…
Honestly, I wish he was by my side
All the time.

Disney: Which Disney character are you most like?

I see myself as Belle. Who longs for an adventure,
who would do anything for her family
and who reads all the time (like me)
The only difference is that she was able to stand up to her beast.
While my beast still roars nightly.

 

Future: Do you think you’d feel better if you know what’s going to happen to you later in your life?

Yes…

iTunes: Top 10 favorite songs?

Currently they are: 

Stairway to Heaven – Led Zepplin
Run- Snow Patrol
Stay The Night- Green Day
Wake Me Up When September Ends– Green Day
With or Without You – U2
Beam Me  Up- Pink
Lovers’ Eyes- Mumford & Sons
Calling You – Blue October
Hurt- Johnny Cash
Funeral of Hearts – HIM

Turn: Who’s someone you wish you didn’t (have to) say goodbye to?

I wish I didn’t have to say goodbye at all.. To anyone I love that is,
Because in the end,everyone goes away..

Tattoo: What tattoos do you want or have, and what’s the story behind them?

This will be some time…I have a few.

A Celtic cross that I drew because I love crosses. For me it is a symbol of faith. Not just faith with God. But faith in anything.. Faith that all will get better,or that tomorrow comes. 

A butterfly, it is my little sign that everything will be okay.. Butterflies have followed me my entire life. Whenever I was down I would see one come across my path and I would feel  like everything will be okay. 

My zodiac sign: Aries. Because that is who  I am. You cannot  change that about me. I will forever be the ram.

I also want a few quotes. Just because they have helped me at times when I wanted to die. Or just cry myself to sleep. 

Skirt: If you could learn any dance style, which would it be?

Advanced Ballet

Cinema: List of movies that have changed your life or your way of thinking.

The Adjustment Bureau
Inception
The Raven
Stardust
Tangled
Les Miserables 

Post: If an apocalypse were to happen, what do you think the situation would be?

I’m hoping for a Walking Dead/ Warm Bodies / World War Z kinda thing

Years: Tell us a story from when you were in high (or middle) school.

One time when I was 12. stood up to sing karaoke at a New Years Eve Party, my voice wasn’t perfect and there were a few older teenagers there who had teased me all night. Before the music started playing I turned to my family and all the people I knew there and I spoke into the microphone telling everyone that I didn’t care if  I sucked. And I didn’t care if they thought I was horrible. I was going to sing and sing loudly. After I finished my song. All I remember was everyone clapping loud…. I wish I had the courage that I did when I was 12.

Vinyl: Top 3 favorite albums?

American Idiot
Les Miserables Soundtrack
Speak Now

Blog: What’s something you’ve learned from having your blog?

That no one can tell me I am wrong. Because I am right. And you are as well. We all are right. No one can tell us that we are wrong. I am original I truly am, and I don’t need to stay quiet anymore. I also learned that more people than I know surf the internet.

 

July 26, 2012

Here is another poem describing how I feel at the moment…

Afraid To Lose you~ Esther Brincat

 

Why am I so fearful?

I wonder what you think of me nightly,

In love, they say to be careful,

But the thought of losing you is frightening.

Why am I afraid?

I want to step out and trust you,

But if I do, will our love fade?

or will it grow stronger, and turn into something new.

Why am I shaking?

I’m afraid of what you will say,

If you see the weird, wacky me.

I don’t want you to think I’m faking,

I want you to be okay

With the weird wacky me

I don’t want you to walk away

When you see that side of me.

Why am I scared to lose you?

You mean so much to me…

I never thought it would get this way

So when you see all of me,

Babe, what will you say?

COPYRIGHT 2012

One Red Drop…

This is another poem of mine. Please read it, and share it with others. ENJOY! 😀

One Red Drop…

By Esther Brincat

There’s a bullet in my heart,
A blood drop in my hand
Tears streaking down your face.
Your expression tells me everything,
“Why do I have to be in this place?”

Red pools of sorrow,
The sadness in your eyes,
“You didn’t do this.” I say,
You look up at the skies.

You can’t replace some one else’s hurt,
“It’s not your fault.” I scream
My hands clenched in the dirt.
“Go home, let me be.
Let me rest and die in agony.”

“I can’t let you do that,”
She whispers, “I can’t let you go.
Just give me a chance,
You gotta let me know!”

With her soft hands she removes my bullet,
The one that was left there by someone who blew it,
With a needle she mend me,
And I go through more pain.

“You promised!” I yell,
“Why is there pain?”
Her tears are still there,
her knees scratched up,
from sitting in the dirt.

“To go through love,
you gotta give up the pain.
Don’t you see?
The one who loves you is me?

I’m not after you to hurt you,
After you to desert you,
After you to take everything from you.
So do you finally see?” She says,
With a sad look at me.

I look at my wound,
and down at my heart,
I can’t see any scars, any blood any marks.
The blood on me all gone,
except for one red drop.

 

COPYRIGHT 2012

Arms….

This is one of my favorite songs. It is by Christina Perri from her debut album Lovestrong. This song has made me cry lots of times.

 
LYRICS:
I never thought that you would be the one to hold my heart
but you came around and you knocked me off the ground from the start
you put your arms around me
and I believe that it’s easier for you to let me go
you put your arms me and I’m homehow many times will let you me change my mind and turn around?
I can’t decide if I’ll let you save my life or if I’ll drown

I hope that you see right through my walls
I hope that you catch me cause I’m already falling
I’ll never let a love get so close
you put your arms around me and I’m homethe world is coming down on me and I can’t find a reason to be loved
I never wanna leave you but I can’t make you bleed if I’m alone

you put your arms around me
and I believe that it’s easier for you to let me go

I hope that you see right through my walls
I hope that you catch me cause I’m already falling
I’ll never let a love get so close
you put your arms around me and I’m homeI try my best to never let you in to see the truth
and I’ve never opened up
I’ve never truly loved ’til…

you put your arms around me
and i believe that it’s easier for you to let me go

I hope that you see right through my walls
I hope that you catch me, cause I’m already falling
I’ll never let a love get so close
you put your arms around me and I’m home

you put your arms around me and I’m home.♥